Prime example of my battle with procrastination is the fact that I have not posted any updates in more than 4 days. Why, you ask? Well, because I have not been doing to well.
New Year’s Day was suppose to be the day I accomplished it all. In my mind I had a plan laid out that would fill my day with needed tasks. There was even time scheduled in to take time out for my family. However, it was not as I had hoped. It seems as though the more thorough my planning, the more difficult it is to adhere to. It was a day of pure interruptions and annoyance. I think I transgressed into my normal bitch mode until after lunch.
Why is it so easy to feel guilty or like a failure if the first few attempts do not succeed. Failure is when we quit trying and just give up. I have not given up, but boy do I feel like a failure. I believe that we are so used to instant gratification that small achievements bring us less happiness.
But on a lighter note, here is what I did manage to accomplish. I went and saw my mother. This may not seem like a big deal, but I have not seen her in 6 years. This was something that had been eating away at me. I just knew that if I let go of all the things that had happened in the past, and became the bigger person, that would be a huge burden lifted off my shoulders. It was good to see her, but nothing had changed. I was simply reminded of the reasons that I had stayed away for 6 years.
This journey to overcome procrastination is more than meets the eye. Each task that I attempt evolves into something more that what I had anticipated. Now I know why I put all this stuff off for so long. I just did not want to deal with it. Healing past relationships, owning up to past mistakes, and trying to avoid making new ones is a huge mountain to climb up. I am emotionally and physically drained, but the journey has just begun.
I agree that at times when we attempt to do something weather new or old things frequently get in our way.
But I think it’s actually when your on the brink of a new beginning that it is the hardest. Obstacles will get in the way and it’s just plain easier to procrastinate.
So my advice to you and to me is to not look back and just keep going. In spite of whatever gets in the way just keep moving.
I once heard someone say you can’t steer a ship unless it’s moving. So even if you’re going in the wrong direction you can at least begin to steer your life in the right direction.
Cheers
Linda
I think it was a good thing that you at least tried to heal your relationship with your mother. You can at least say that you tried and that is soooooo much better than leaving things too late and spending the resy of your life feeling guilty and wondering if.
I hope your year gets better, as no doubt it will, its just easier to think that it won’t.
As for procrastination, well worry abou that tomorrow (get it)
Kate
Thank you for your thoughts. I appreciate you taking the time to not only read my post, but commenting on it as well.